Lately I've been thinking about how I want to move forward and it seems I have lots of ideas. But when I start to take action, I find I’m talking myself out of the idea that just moments before was really exciting. Does this happen to you?
This is when I remind myself it’s time to go within and find what I'm holding onto that’s bringing up these self-sabotaging thoughts. There’s always something hanging out in my subconscious that holds the answer. For me, and for a great many of us, it’s a fear of thinking we’re not enough.
I’ve found over time that a combination of meditative exploration and writing have helped me dig deep to reveal those little, albeit loud and sometimes brash, voices hanging out in my subconscious mind.
How did they get in there?
The subconscious mind is like a Venus fly trap. Once something goes in, it doesn’t come out, at least not on its own. It’s trapped. So it does what any trapped thing would do, it hangs out until it gets triggered and shows up as fear.
Generally, the subconscious mind gets populated when we’re young and can’t process what is being said to us. For instance, did anyone ever tell you that you couldn’t draw or your voice was too loud? Do you now find yourself saying “I can’t draw a straight line,” or do you keep your thoughts to yourself thinking it’s too presumptive to speak? Were either of these really true then or now? Not at all. But the subconscious mind doesn’t want to rock the boat out of fear of being reprimanded in some way, so it has you convinced that doing nothing is the better option.
This is when I turn to the page. You may think it’s better to leave those thoughts alone, but if you don’t address them, they’ll be there the next time you get the idea to sign up for an art class or you want to speak up for yourself. Writing can take what’s been hiding, move it onto the page and into the light of day.
The process of a thought going from your subconscious mind down your arm and onto the page allows the heart to hold you in the love that you are enough.
For me, this is one profound experience that helps move me from fear to action.
But what if writing itself sets off the alarms? “I can’t write.” “I’ve never been a good writer.” “Yeah, right, like that’s going to happen.”
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